Sugarcane

[[Fuck it|Fuck it]].\n\n<<set $scum = true>>

You so want to be [[free|Free]] to call them scum.\n\n[[Back|Something's happened]]

Surrounded by masculinity.\n\nIt sweats - [[not literally|Not literally]].\n\nYou [[hate|Hate]] it.

It [[will|will]] shatter.\n\n[[Fucking hit it|Fucking hit it]].

What? No.\n\n[[What's wrong with you?|What's wrong]]\n\nThe doctor writes something on their clipboard/the bully laughs, calls their friends/the friend looks nervous/the creep leers from the other side of the classroom.\n\nOne more time, are you a boy or a [[girl?|girl]]\n\n

One of the scum.\n\n[[Back|So much]]\n

Your real home.\n\nThere you [[don't have a schedule|Breathe]].\n\nThere you can breathe.\n\nYou [[hate|Gender]] it so much here.

Your real home.\n\nThere you can breathe.\n\nThere you can breathe.\n\nYou [[hate|Gender]] it so much here.

Your whole life they've asked; are you a boy, or are you a [[girl?|Girl]].

Burn the sweat and burn <<if $scum>>the scum<<else>>them<<endif>> and burn the building. Burn the pool table and the food and the TVs.\n\nTo [[rage|Rage]].

[[Do what you can|Do what you can]].

It's not good. <<if $scum>>The scum<<else>>He<<endif>> is right behind you, he's so fast.\n\n[[Fuck|Fuck]].

The school. But all day.\n\n[[Back|Matter]]

The glass flies off in jagged shards, lethal like knives, delicate like moths, broken like they are.\n\n[[Fist|Broken]].

You sneak into the [[bathroom|Bathroom]] to read.\n\n[[Back|Itch]]

Surrounded by Masculinity

Just like you [[should be|Being men]].\n\nIt doesn't [[matter|Matter]].\n\nIt matters [[so much|So much]].

Now you're too fat. [[Starve|Starve]].\n\n[[Back|Itch]]

You're scared of being judged... you know [[what?|What]]\n\n[[Back|Something's happened]]

Just [[once|Once]].\n\n[[Back|Fuck]]

You want it all to [[burn|Burn]].

[["Come back!"|Come back]]

Anywhere.\n\n[["Why are you running?"|Why]]

Justice has been done. Lesson taught.\n\n[[Back|Fuck]]

You don't want it anyway.\n\n[[Back|Lunch time]]

You hide in your room so you can miss it.\n\nYou need to [[rebel|Breakfast]].\n\n[[Back|Itch]]

You [[want|Want]] to be that fire.

Sometimes you want to saw it off.\n\n[[Back|Shower]]

Just like you [[aren't|Aren't]].\n\nIt doesn't [[matter|Matter]].\n\nIt matters [[so much|So much]].

You hide in your room so you can miss it.\n\nYou need the [[quiet|Quiet]].\n\n[[Back|Itch]]

On the [[screen|Screen]].

Doors on your right, windows on your left.\n\nYou [[run|Run]].

Not today.\n\n[[Hit it|Hit It]].

You wouldn't care.\n\n[[Back|Broken]]

Surrounded by masculinity.\n\nIt sweats - it's disgusting.\n\nYou [[hate|Hate]] it.

You don't look.\n\n[[Back|Shower]]

They aren't listening.\n\n[[I'm a girl|girl]].\n\n<<set $insistence = $insistence + 1>><<if $insistence gte 10>>[[Maybe they're right|Maybe]].<<else>>They're wrong.<<endif>>\n<<silently>>\n<<set $dysphoria = true>>\n<<endsilently>>\n<<if $itch>>[[Back to reality|Reality]]<<else>>[[Anyway|Matter]]<<endif>>

They all ask this.\n\nYou don't know.\n\n[[Back|GIRL]]

Now you're too thin. [[Eat|Eat]].\n\n[[Back|Itch]]

You wonder if sweat is [[flammable|Flammable]].

There's nothing you cannot do.\n\n[[Look around for something to burn.|Look]]

Surrounded by masculinity.\n\nIt [[sweats|sweats]].

No.\n\n[[Coward|Coward]].

You don't want to think about this.\n\n[[Back|girl]]

You are not fire.\n\nYou need to [[escape|Escape]].

These are dorms, everyone locks theirs.\n\n[[Keep running|Running]].

You see so much [[potential|Potential]].\n\n<<if $potential>>What can you [[do?|You do]]<<else>>You don't know what to do.<<endif>>

[[Glass|Glass]].\n\n[[Fist|Fist]].

Wait.\n\n[[Yes|Yes]].

You hide in your room so you can miss it.\n\nYou need the [[solitude|Solitude]].\n\n[[Back|Itch]]

[[You are surrounded|You are surrounded]]

run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run and run\n\n[[Back|Run more]]

This place is worse than everywhere else.\n\nBut [[not much|Not much]] worse.

You were too [[weak|Weak]].

Here. [[Free|free]].

You wouldn't care.\n\n[[Back|Fist]]

Coward.\n\n[[Back|Do what you can]]

[[Glass|Broken]].\n\nYou feel the cold air on your knuckles. You don't notice you're [[bleeding|Bleeding]].

You make to leave, stepping over the disgusting [[mass|Mass]] of <<if $scum>>scum<<else>>them<<endif>>.\n\n[[Do what you can|What you can]].

Your real home.\n\nThere you [[don't have a schedule|Don't have a schedule]].\n\nThere you can [[be on your own|Be on your own]].\n\nYou [[hate|Gender]] it so much here.

[[You are not a coward|Not a coward]].\n\n[[Hit it|Hit It]].

You must see [[something|Look]].\n\n<<set $potential = true>><<if $potential>>What can you [[do?|You do]]<<else>>You don't know what to do.<<endif>>

You are a coward.\n\n[[Flight|Flight]]

Surrounded by masculinity.\n\nIt [[sweats|Sweats]].\n\nYou [[hate|Hate]] it.

[[No|No]]\n\n[[Flight|Flight]]

You are [[surrounded|Surrounded]]\n\n<<set $insistence = 0>>

You're scared of being judged[[.|.]]\n\n[[Back|Something's happened]]

You love them so much.\n\n[[Back|Lunch time]]

Watch someone else play Xbox, watch someone else play pool, watch someone else on the computer, watch TV (with everyone else).\n\n[[Back|Itch]]

You can tell because the scum all [[cheer|Cheer]].

You [[run|run and run]]\n\nThey try to grab you. [["Where are you going?"|Where]]

The glass flies off in jagged shards, lethal like knives, delicate like moths, broken like they are.\n\nYou feel the cold air on your knuckles. You don't notice you're [[bleeding|bleeding]].\n\n[[Run more|Run more]].

You kick the <<if $scum>>largest of the scum<<else>>largest<<endif>> in the head.\n\n"What the fuck?"\n\n[[Flight|Flight]]\n\n[[Fight|Fight]]

On the screen, [[something's happened|Something's happened]].

He [[hits you|Hits]], square in the back of the head.\n\n[["Fuck off."|Fuck off]]

You're scared of being judged[[...|...]]\n\n[[Back|Something's happened]]

You are being made one of <<if $scum>>[[them|The scum]]<<else>>them<<endif>>.\n\n[[It doesn't matter?|More like]].

Your real home.\n\nThere you can breathe.\n\nThere you can [[be on your own|Breathe]].\n\nYou [[hate|Gender]] it so much here.

Your fucked up [[freaks|Freaks]].\n\n[[Back|Lunch time]]

Still locked, and you [[can't break them|can't break]].\n\n[[Back|Do what you can]]\n

You can tell because [[they|Men]] all [[cheer|Cheer]].

Later.\n\n[[You need to breathe|need to breathe]].

It [[won't|won't]] shatter.

It doesn't care if it might get fat.\n\n[[Back|Rage]]

[[So|so]]

No-one offers you a high-five.\n\n[[Back|Cheer]]

You will not.\n\n[[Fucking hit it|Fucking hit it]].

You [[see...|see...]]\n\n<<if $potential>>What can you [[do?|You do]]<<else>>You don't know what to do.<<endif>>

It's quieter here.\n\n[[Back|Itch]]

You don't want to die here.\n\n[[Back|Gender]]

It isn't male or female, it's fire, and it fucking knows that.\n\n[[Back|Rage]]

Surrounded by masculinity.\n\nIt sweats - [[literally|Literally]].\n\nYou [[hate|Hate]] it.

You are [[surrounded|surrounded]]

Glass. Thin glass.\n\n[[Hit it?|Hit it]]\n\n[[Go back?|Do what you can]]\n

You see so much [[potential?|Potential?]]\n\n<<if $potential>>What can you [[do?|You do]]<<else>>You don't know what to do.<<endif>>

Your [[shame|Shame]]

It's a matter of pride for <<if $scum>>the scum<<else>>them<<endif>> to wake you as noisly and unpleasantly as possible.\n\n[[Back|Itch]]

Weak.\n\n[[Back|Do what you can]]

You run out, into the [[corridor|Corridor]].

More like it doesn't matter your opinion.\n\nYour whole life they've asked; are you a boy, or are you a [[girl?|Girl]].

Surrounded by whatever you want.

You hate yourself for wishing that.\n\n[[Back|Cheer]]

You [[won't|Won't]] go back.\n\n[[Back|Do what you can]]

[[Those|Those]] fucked up [[freaks|Freaks]].\n\n[[Back|Lunch time]]

For so many reasons.\n\nThey [[realise your crime|Realise]].

You [[need|Need]] to be that fire.

You can do [[nothing|Nothing]].

Rage out of control. Rage to the school and into the town, [[eat|Fire eat]] it all up, consume it all into its [[inferno heat|Inferno heat]].\n\nIt's [[so|So]]

You're [[dying|Dying]] here.\n<<silently>>\n<<set $itch = true>>\n<<endsilently>>\n<<if $dysphoria>>[[Back to reality|Reality]]<<else>>This place is making you [[male|Male]]<<endif>>.

Your [[masculinity|Masculinity]] is on show. [[Theirs|There's]] too.\n\n[[Back|Itch]]

In [[here|Here]].\n\nYou [[itch|Itch]] in [[here|Here]].

[[High-fiving|High-fiving]], [[laughing|Laughing]].\n\n<<if $scum>>[[Being scum|Being men]].\n<<else>>[[Being men|Being men]].<<endif>>

You [[wish|Wish]] you found it funny.\n\n[[Back|Cheer]]

Orangeban

It's [[locked|Locked]].\n\n[[Keep running|Running]].

You're too thin. [[Eat|Eat]].\n\nYou're too fat. [[Starve|Starve]]. \n\n[[Back|Itch]]

Just like you [[are?|Are]]\n\nIt doesn't [[matter|Matter]].\n\nIt matters [[so much|So much]].

You [[skip|Skip]] lunch, this is the only chance you get to be with your [[friends|Friends]].\n\n[[Back|Itch]]

So [[powerful|Powerful]].

You are that [[fire|Fire]].

You [[have|Have]] to be that fire.

They may as well be one.\n\nYou loathe them.\n\n[[Back|Escape]]

Wrong.\n\nThe doctor frowns/the bully hits you/the friend edges away from you/the creep threatens to rape you.\n\nChoose again. Boy or [[girl?|GIRL]].