It smells of dirty laundry and cigarette smoke. You have the cold sweats and feel the goosebumps racing up your arms to the rest of your body. The feeling of nausea is starting to set in. Your nose is runny, and your muscles are beginning to ache. You have to get up and do something otherwise things are going to get much worse. you know this all too well.
When did things get like this. It all seems like a blur. It seemed like yesterday you were a kid playing in the sand on the beach...
You look around your dimly lit room. Your (t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.5s)+(text-style:"blink")[[[phone's->phone screen]]] notification light is blinking. The (t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.5s)+(text-style:"buoy")[[[drawer->inside drawer]]] to your side table is ajar.
(text-style:"blink")[]You pick up you phone and unlock it. You see you have some unread (t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[messages->text messages]].Inside the drawer is there is a lighter, a spoon, a cigarrette cellophane, and a syringe.
(if:visits is 1)[(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.2s)[[Close drawer->drawer loop]]]
(if:visits is 2)[(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.2s)[[Close drawer again->drawer loop 2]]
]
(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.5s)+(text-style:"fidget")[[Grab items out of drawer->inside-cellophane]](t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1s)[[Baby->girlfriend-text]]
(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1s)[[Mom->Mom-text]]
(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1s)[[Charlie->charlie-text]]
(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1s)[[James->james-text]]
(more:)[(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[Put phone down->Wake up in bedroom]]]
(if:(history: where its name contains "james-text")'s length >= 1)[(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[Put phone down->Wake up in bedroom]]]There is a small black peice inside the plastic that you take out and set in the spoon. You add some water and grab the (t8n-depart:"instant")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-down")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:4.5s)+(text-style:"shudder")[[syringe->use-syringe]].Jane: Please call me I'm sick and need to get well.
Jane: Babe where are you??!
Jane: I'm about to call Hector if you don't answer...
(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[Swipe left->text messages]]Mom: See you Thursday for dinner sweetie.
Mom: Are you coming? We are waiting for you.
Mom: We missed you at dinner the other night, I'm sure you have been busy with work.
Mom: Will you please respond I'm beginning to worry.
(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[Swipe left->text messages]]Charlie: That was a pretty sick lick last night.
Charlie: hit me up when your up, I got a come up for today then we can go pick up.
(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[Swipe left->text messages]] James: Idk what's up with you lately but they are going to can you if you don't start showing up for work and and at least acting like you want to be there.
You: I know I'm just going through a tough time.
James: Dude, you're an hour late where are you?!?!
You: Tell them I'll be there soon, having car problems.
James: Alright I'll let them know, hurry up!
James: well it's been three hours, obviously you aren't coming...
James: Dont worry about coming to work today, they took you off the schedule.
(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[Swipe left->text messages]] You look up into the mirror.
It's painful to even look.
You hate the person you see standing before you.
You smash the mirror with your fist (text-style:"shudder")[(text-rotate-z:354)[''shattering'']] it to pieces.
(text-style:"buoy")[(text-colour:red)[Blood]] runs down your arm.
(t8n-depart:"rumble")+(t8n-arrive: "slide-left")+(t8n-time:2.2s)(click-goto:?page,"abstract day6")(text-colour:"black")[Hey you... hey you there, what's your name?
(input-box:2bind $player_name,"=======XXXXXX=======",1)]
(t8n-depart:"slide-left")+(t8n-arrive:"slide-left")[[Turn around->dream 2]]My names $player_name.
Thats right $player_name, I remember now. We were in 2nd grade together, Miss Olsen's class. Boy wasn't she something else. Looking back I can't believe she was our teacher.
Hey you want a hit of this joint?
(t8n-arrive:"dissolve")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[Okay, sure...->dream 3]]
(enchant:?page,(background:(gradient: 0, 0.1592,#94d82d,0.4487,#197fe6,0.9362,(hsl:0,0,1,0.05))))
You're running through a field full of green grass. The grass is covered with a fresh dew from the gentle touch of the night.
The blue sky is speckled with a few white, fluffy clouds, they are innocent and honest.
It is a time before you felt like the world was resting on your shoulders and it took all your might and strength to hold it up. Before the thoughts of others controlled you.
Before life paralysis kicked in. Before being consumed by fear.
Your day was filled with playing with your friends outside, anything was a possibility, as long as you made it (text-style:"bold")[home] for dinner.
Dreams of being an astronaut and going in a rocket to the moon.
Dreams of being a fireman and rescuing people from flaming buildings.
Dreams of being a doctor and curing people's illness.
(t8n-depart:"instant")+(t8n-arrive:"shudder")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[wake up->Wake up in bedroom]]
A warm fuzzy feeling rushes over your body. Your cold sweats stop, your muscle aches cease to exist. You begin to feel like yourself again...
(after:3.3s)[''Normal''.]
[[Get up->got well]]You enjoy a moment of nonexistence and post intravenous bliss then remember you have people to see and things to do.
(t8n-time:2s)[[Go to Jane's->Janes house]]
(t8n-arrive:"shudder")+(t8n-time:3s)[You slowly come to, drowsy and trying to remember what happened. You're disorientated and grasping to remember where you are...
You see Charlie laying over on the bed, that's right you are at Charlie's house. You notice charlie is still out.]
Wait...
He looks very pale. You get a closer look and notice his lips are blue. You begin to panic. You rush over and touch his (t8n-depart:"instant")+(t8n-arrive:"shudder")+(t8n-time:1s)[[skin->charlies body]].(enchant:?page,(background:(gradient: 0, 0.2056,(hsl:0,0,0,0.85),0.4206,#ffffff,0.642,(hsl:0,0,0,0.9),0.759,transparent)))
(live: 5s)[(goto: "use-syringe")]You arrive at your mom's house, she is cleaning and is happy to see you.
Mom: "Hey honey, how are you? We missed you at dinner the other night."
Mom: "How is work going?"
You: "Yea I was really busy the other night, works going great. I got a raise actually."
Mom: "That's great to hear!"
Your mom walks out into the garage to put in a load of laundry.
[[Go into bedroom->mom's bedroom]]//Knock, knock//
Jane answers the door she doesn't look well. Her hair is a mess and her mascara has run all down her cheecks. Her big blue eyes are watery, and she looks like shes in pain.
She is, she's a few hours into her withdrawals.
Jane: "Where have you been? I've been waiting to hear from you. Please tell me you have something; I'm hurting so bad."
You: "I don't have anything babe, but I got something in the works then we can go pick up."
Jane: "What! What do you mean? Whatever I have to go call me later."
You: "Wait, can I come-"
(after:4s)+(text-style:"emboss")[''SLAM'']
(t8n-time:3.5s)[[Go to moms->moms house]]You and Charlie went and picked up with the money you stole from your mom and headed back to his place to fix.
You're sitting in his room while Charlie prepares an issue for the both of you. On the wall is a [[poster->nirvana-poster]]. Charlie's room is a disaster. Ashtrays are overflowing with cigarette butts, used syringes laying everywhere, and there are more burn holes in the furniture from cigarettes being dropped than you could count. The room appears to be infested with fleas the cat brought in and a lack of light ever entering the room has multiplied them. They don't appear to be going anywhere because they have been here for months. Ouch! You smack your leg as another flea bites you. How can someone live like this you think to yourself? A [[yellow pamphlet->NA IP]] grabs your attention.
Charlie: "here you go, dude said this stuff is pretty killer."
Charlie hands you a full issue, you find a (t8n-depart:"fade-up")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-down")+(t8n-time:3s)[[vein->overdose]] in your arm.
You look at a picture of you grandmother hanging on the wall and then a portrait of you sitting on the top of the dresser. There is a piece of [[paper->paying-bills]] sitting on the bed. You see your mom's [[purse->inside-purse]] sitting on the chair by the bed.(text-style:"italic")[
(text-style:"strike")[Mortgage
Electric bill
cable
car payment
insurance
family phone bill]
]
[[mom's bedroom->mom's bedroom]]Inside the purse, you see your mom's wallet is open and you see she has some cash laying inside. You know your mom is already struggling with everything going on, but you would be able to get back in Jane's good graces...
Besides, you can already feel the come down coming on. If not for her, you have to do it for yourself.
[[Take the money->took money]]
(cycling-link:"Don't take the money","What are you thinking?","You're going to regret not taking it","The choice isn't yours to make","")
You take the money and shove it in your pocket. You hastily turn to walk out and leave. You shout at your mom so you don't have to look her in the eyes.
You: "Bye mom I'll see you later I got to head to work soon!"
Mom: " Bye honey I Lo-"
''SLAM ''
You head for (t8n-time:1s)[[Charlie's->charlies house]] house.
It's a black and white poster of the band Nirvana. Kurt Cobain is in the middle of Krist Novoselic and Dave Grohl.
(text-style:"italic")["I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not."]
(align:"<==")+(box:"=X")[(text-style:"bold")[- Kurt Cobain]]
[[charlie's room->charlies house]](align:"=><=")[//''Narcotics Anonymous''
Our message is hope and our promise is freedom from active adiction.
You never have to use again even if you want to.//]
---
Sure, what a bunch of crazies you think to yourself.
(set: $hope to 1)
(link: "Fold and put in your pocket")[(set: $ip to 1)(goto: "charlies house")]
(t8n-depart:"fade-up")+(t8n-time:5s)+(align:"=><=")+(box:"=XXXXXXXX=")[(text-style:"bold","blurrier","expand","sway")+(size: 2)[Everything fades to black.....]]
<!--(t8n-depart:"shudder")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:3s)+(after: 20s)(goto: "charlies dead") */ -->
(t8n-depart:"flicker")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:2.5s)(click-goto:?page,"charlies dead")
His skin is cold to the touch.
You don't see his chest moving.
You feel for a pulse and feel nothing...
(t8n:"slide-right")+(t8n-time:1.2s)+(link:"Call 911")[Operator: "911 what's your emergency?"
You: My friend is unconsciouse I need and ambulance
Operator: "Okay I'm going to ask you a few questions..."
...
Operator: "Stay with him until the ambulance arrives." Click.
(t8n:"dissolve")+(t8n-time:1.2s)+(link:"Stay with Charlie")[
You want to stay with your friend but you glance around the room. They will know what you two were up to. They will call the police.
(t8n-depart:"instant")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:2.8s)[[Panic and run->abstract day1]]]
]
You're standing looking in the mirror.
You don't recoginze the person you are looking at.
The guilt and shame is consuming you.
How did you become this...?
You have to numb the pain.
(t8n-depart:"instant")+(t8n-arrive:"flicker")+(t8n-time:2.8s)(click-goto:?page,"abstract day2")
You're running through a store the security guard is chasing you.
Security Guard: "Stop! Somebody stop that person!"
You keep running, only one thing matters.
(t8n-depart:"slide-right")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-down")+(t8n-time:2.8s)(click-goto:?page,"abstract day3")(align:"<==")+(box:"XXX==")[Its late, around 1:00 am you are roaming the streets.]
(align:"==>")+(box:"=X")[You check each car you pass by to see if the unfortunate owner left
the car unlocked.]
(align:"<==")+(box:"X=")[A door handle lifts and the car door pulls open.]
(align:"==>")+(box:"=X")[Bingo.]
(align:"<==")+(box:"X=")[You search around for anything worth value.]
(align:"==>")+(box:"=X")[What's this?]
(align:"<==")+(box:"X=")[You stumble across the keys to the car.
You jump in start up the car and take off.]
(t8n-depart:"slide-right")+(t8n-time:1.0s)+(t8n-arrive:"fade-up")+(t8n-time:2.0s)(click-goto:?page,"abstract day4")
You wake up and your lying on the cold cement floor, its smells like bleach, mixed with a doctors office.
You're in a small room with 5 other people you don't know.
Your all wearing the same cothes, blue mocks with orange under shirts.
Deputy : "$player_name lets go we're moving you to your cell."
(t8n-depart:"slide-up")+(t8n-time:1.5s)+(t8n-arrive:"slide-right")+(t8n-time:2.8s)(click-goto:?page,"abstract day5")(enchant:?page,(text-colour:black)+(background:#f8f9fa))
John : "John addict, I remember the days when I would wake up and look in the mirror and not recogize the person I had become. Not Only that but I hated the person I was looking at in the mirror. Today I can look in the mirror and love who I am."
(t8n-depart:"instant")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-left")+(t8n-time:2.5s)(click-goto:?page,"mary")
(enchant:?page,(text-colour:black)+(background:#f8f9fa))(align:"===><==")+(text-size:2)[My names (text-style:"bold","mark")[$player_name] and I'm an addict.]
(click:?page)+(t8n:"dissolve")+(t8n-time:1.2s)+(text-size:2)[(align:"=><=")+(box:"=XXXXXXXX=")[Everyone: "Welcome Home"]]
(t8n-depart:"instant")+(t8n-arrive:"dissolve")+(t8n-time:1.6s)(click-goto:?page,"help hotline")You wake up (text-style:"shudder")[(text-colour:blue)[shivering]], your head is lying on the ground sideways, its hard.
In your view is a black plane, it's asphalt.
You just lay there.
In your view you see a large metal dumpster with trash bags overflowing and some sitting next to it.
Two brick walls form the walls to the buildings you're between.
Farther out you hear the hustle and bustle of life, people walking by on the side walk, cars driving by.
You see a child walking by with their parents. They are full of joy, innocence.
You feel invisible.
Alone.
You breakdown and begin to sob.
(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:3.3s)(click-goto:?page,"abstract day8")
Mom: I can't try to help you $player_name until you start helping yourself. I'm here for you when you want help to stop using.
(t8n-depart:"instant")+(t8n-arrive:"slide-up")+(t8n-time:2.2s)(click-goto:?page,"abstract day7")You are feeling hopeless about life and are lost.
You don't know how to go on like this.
You don't know how to live...
You feel something in your pocket.
[[Reach in pocket->pull-ip]](align:"=><=")[//''Narcotics Anonymous''
Narcotics Anonymous 24 Hour Help Line
1-888-817-7425
//]
(t8n-depart:"instant")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-right")+(t8n-time:8s)[[Call number->meeting]]
Mary: "My names Mary and I'm an addict. When I was using people only wanted to hangout with me if there was something I had that they wanted. I focused so much on pleasing others that I become dependant on their validation. Today I have true freinds that expect nothing of me other than to be myself."
(t8n-depart:"instant")+(t8n-time:1.5s)+(t8n-arrive:"fade-right")+(t8n-time:2.5s)(click-goto:?page,"quin")
Quinn: "I'm an addict whose name is Quinn. It took me a long time to get through the guilt and shame of my brother's death. We were getting loaded together and when I came back from a nod he was dead from an overdose. Why was I chosen to live I used to always question? He was so much better than me. Through the 12, steps I have found acceptance and peace."
(t8n-depart:"dissolve")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-left")+(t8n-time:2.5s)(click-goto:?page,"allen")
Allen: "Allen addict. I used to wake up in jail cells. My freedom was stripped from me. I spent most of my youth and early adulthood incarcerated. I haven't woke up in a jail cell in many years thanks to this program."
(t8n-depart:"dissolve")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-right")+(t8n-time:2.5s)(click-goto:?page,"evaline")Evaline: "Evaline addict. My family cut me off, they didn't want me in their lives. I had caused too much hurt, pain and, suffering for them. I had sacrificed everything for one thing. To get loaded. I never felt more alone in my life. Through these rooms and I have been able to gain the love and trust of my family back."
(t8n-depart:"dissolve")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-left")+(t8n-time:2.5s)(click-goto:?page,"eric")
Eric: "I was at the end of my road, I didn't want to live anymore. I didn't know how to live with or without drugs. I've begun to build a life worth living. These rooms have given me hope and I'm learning how to live."
(t8n-depart:"dissolve")+(t8n-arrive:"fade-up")+(t8n-time:1.6s)(click-goto:?page,"eyes-on-you")(align:"=><=")[The room fills with silence. A few people glance your way.]
(after:3s)[(align:"==><=")[(size: 3)+(t8n-depart:"instant")+(t8n-arrive:"dissolve")+(t8n-time:1.6s)[[Identify->identify]]]](enchant:?page,(background:(hsl:228,0.6897,0.5451,0.75)))(align:"=><=")+(box:"======XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX====")[If you or a loved one is suffering from substance abuse and the disease of addiction call your local Narcotics Anonymous Help Hotline.
Addiction is classified as a mental illness, get help today.
Start your journey of recovery.
NA - Never Alone
A messsage of Hope.
The Promise of freedom from active addiction.](text-style:"blur")[You roll back over and lay there in your bed.
Your eyes have begun to water blurring your vision.
Sweat beads off you skin and you feel as if you are burning up.
You can hear your heartbeat speeding up and feel the pressure of your blood bouncing off the walls of your arteries and veins.
You begin to (text-style:"shudder")[shake]...
Your gaze drifts back over to the ](text-style:"buoy")[(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"dissolve")+(t8n-time:1.2s)[[drawer->inside drawer]]]
(text-style:"blur","sway")[
Your begin to feel sharp pains in your stomach.
You begin to feel very nauseous and turn over to the side of the bed.
You heave and gag before you vomit up some disgusting yellowish-green bile.
You look up and staring right back at you is the ] (text-size:2)+(t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:1.2s)[[drawer->inside drawer]]